Friday, March 16, 2012

That Old Familiar Feeling?

Today, I just don't know why i feel like letting go of all my worries... i feel like letting go of all the complications... suffocations, and i just wanna be alone.

The main the reason why i am here again today is, i had to let go of my other close friend on BlackBerry....I am never good with goodbyes...this particular friend have been there most of my difficult times...i just can't handle too many suffocating moment / issues as i am in the mid of reinventing myself, i honestly can't keep up with all these.... I am truly sorry for having to have to do this to you.... i just don't want you to feel guilty for having to choose to delete me instead ...

I am on repeat mode now as usual, now i am beginning to understand why sometimes i put things on repeat probably to numb certain feelings which i would rather avoid discussing than to hurt that particular person by voicing things out....incase you guys wondering what am i listening to....first i have to thanked new group friend who posted this song today...by the name GP. The song is so therapeutic, as if God's sending it just in time to heal my sobbing heart so to speak....Thank You Allah....:(

To that very special friend, I hope you'll find what you've been looking for and remember, "
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. ~ Bernice Johnson Reagon " I am setting you free so you can get on with life to find all those missing links in your life and probably one fine day I will see you be happy again as i always wished you would. Thank you for loving me....I remained your muse always....


Yours Truly,
Always be your... Baby Matahari :(



Pankaj Udhas - Chandi Jaisa Rang He Tera


The Lyrics ;)
Pankaj Udhas - Chandi Jaisa Rang He Tera

Chandi jaisa rang hai tera, sone jaise baal
( Like silver is your complexion, gold like tresses)
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
(Only you are the rich one, fair girl, the rest are all poor)
Chandi jaisa rang hai tera, sone jaise baal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal

Jis reste se tu gujre, voh phoolon se bhar jaye
(Whatever pathway/road you take, they fill up with flowers)
Jis reste se tu gujre, voh phoolon se bhar jaye
Tere pair ki komal aahat sote bhaag jagaye
(The soft treading of your feet wake the sleeping destiny)
Jo patthar choo le gori tu voh heera ban jaye
(The stone you touch, fair girl, turns into diamond)
Tu jisko mil jaye voh, tu jisko mil jaye
(The one who obtains you, the one who obtains you)
Vo ho jaye malamal
(Will become very very rich)
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
(You are the only rich one, fair damsel, the rest are poor)
Chandi jaisa rang hai tera, sone jaise baal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal

Jo be-rang ho us par kya kya rang jamate log
(Those who are colourless get thrusted with what various colours by others)
Jo be-rang ho us par kya kya rang jamate log
Tu naadaan na jane kaise roop churate log
(You are naïve, you don’t know what faces people hide)
Nazaren bhar bhar dekhen tujhko aate jaate log
(People passing by are looking at you glaringly)
Chail chabeeli rani thoda, Chail chabeeli rani thoda
(O gracious beautiful queen, slightly)
ghoonghat aur nikaal
(Let the veil slip)
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
(Only you are the rich one, o fair lady, the others are poor)
Chandi jaisa rang hai tera, sone jaise baal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal


Dhanak ghata kaliyan aur tare sub hain tere roop
(Rainbow, clouds, flower buds and stars are all your features/ faces)
Dhanak ghata kaliyan aur tare sub hain tera roop
Ghazalen hon ya geet hon mere sub mein tera roop
(Whether it be my poems or songs, all are about you)
Yunhi chamakti rahe hamesha tere husn ki dhoop
(May the shade of your beauty always shine like this)
Tujhe nazar na lage kisi ki
(May no one's evil eyes cast upon you)
Tujhe nazar na lage kisi ki
Jiye hazaron saal
(May you live a hundred years)
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
Chandi jaisa rang hai tera, sone jaise baal
( Like silver is your complexion, gold like tresses)
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
(Only you are the rich one, fair girl, the rest are all poor)
Chandi jaisa rang hai tera, sone jaise baal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal
Ek tuhi dhanvaan hai gori, baaki sub kangaal