The Episode about SAME word but different interpretation...

I was on my nosy mode today, browsing thru some of my favourite blogs online earlier...UNTIL....

(I had the best laugh today! No name dropping here ok ? heeeeeeee)..... I came across this conversation on the chatter's box...
B: I need a company
G: ok, I'll built / build u one... now u tell me, what's wrong here? LOL

Oh MY LORD....I was really holding my laugh, until i almost fainted! My mom rushed in my studyroom to see what happened to me! She thought, i'd gone metal for laughing so loud! BAHAHAAAAAAA

All i can say is, that poor girl deserved a good clap >> BRAVO, for trying her best to make friends ...Even i can't measure to that, at my age now....she was being very patience with some of the remarks (i can say a bit sarcastic remarks) thrown at her for being a little 'clueless' about the real thing that was written / asked, on the chatbox...

At the same time, i can't blame the others for feeling really annoyed by her 'clueless-ness' and for trying too hard to please others, altho i knew she meant well...

All and all, it was the best day and the best laugh for me, because...sometimes when i read her replies and the other comment, i felt like i have butterfly in my tummy..where a part of me wanted to correct her and another part of me wanted to tell the other about what this poor girl's intention by saying things...which sometimes her remarks may sounds a little awkward...but yeah i got what she meant! LOL...just that it came out wrong...because of her english (well my english is sooooo sooooo bad as well )

oh boy....anyway, i met a few interesting chatters there and yeah i had a blast! Altho i know, i left the my cyber world about 3 years back but hey...i really do miss chatting with some of my very old chatmate....boo hoo...ahh well, in life u can't have everything you want ....

Ok, i'm a little sleepy now but i'll dropby when i can ;) Nite Nite Peeps Sweet dreams..where ever you are =)

No Matter What....

Today...after having a few episode of "feel good factor" last week and this week....i finally have to let it go....letting go with a realisation that, there are things in life that are not meant to be...altho it was just a crush / flirt, to me it was REAL..and for that moment...i am alive ! =)

To others, there are things that should be left unsaid. For me, there's always reason for everything and all of us deserved to be heard. So here i am...writing my heart out, that i'm not gonna leave any hanging thoughts or unfinished chapter in my life...so that i could move on and maybe one fine day...i'll fine what i'm looking for.....

I'm really grateful for that short friction of time to finally realised that i can still feel (CRUSH heeeeeeee) for someone and for that moment i can flirt and just be myself in true sense (you know what i mean and yeah, you know who you are ;) )


It was beautiful...was, because i'm starting to feel a bit less than the first intensity (remember the crush graph chart i told you?) and to tell you the truth, YOU are my reason to wake up to every morning...maybe just see if there's an sms or offline on my yahoo messenger...and oh my god, i kinda sound like a desperate girl here...bahahaaaa....but i don't care! Because it makes me feel good!!


Sometimes, i secretly think ...that perhaps i might be "in crush" of the idea of having a crush with someone or somebody....but how can you really tell whetever you are in crush with your own idea or is it for real? Don't ask me, because i myself still trying to figure this thing out...my whole life that is =)

Hmm...the end.

P.S : I just don't know what to write anymore...i think i said it all yesterday... (at this moment...my brain is totally blank but good blank...i erased all the Bad Suffocation Vibes which happened in my life recently...) and you did that for me...subconciously...heeeeeeeee My Feel Good Factor ;)

Simple Pleasures in Life

How did you start your day today? Mine... was fantastic ! I woke up with blocked nose, sexy voice (thanks to sore throat!) and body temperature slightly feverish...Well that's not what i had in mind to share with you guys today tho....The thing is..despite what happen a few weeks back..Today, i woke up with a big SMILE on my face!

Why? What happen? I had the best dream in years, last night! I finally see myself in a garden filled with flowers....infact, i can even smell it! It's like the movie, Just like Heaven garden...and this time it's not with Mark Ruffalo in it as my Hero ;)....DANG!!

Hahaaaa.....no wet dreams or wotsoever..it was just one of those old fashion ..very very safe dream, where you wake up feeling good about everything, knowing that everything is possible! Even with my blocked nose, i feel sexy, and yeah with my husky "sore throat voice", i heard myself saying "I Love You".......(fill in the blanks, yourself !!! Heheee :p)



The funny part was, i heard Angela Bofill singing "Tonite I Give in To This Feeling" in the dream i had...when i woke up, DANG i was right infront of my old laptop with my headphone still attached to my ears!!! (to be continued..)

First & Foremost

After several attempt of doing my very own blog, I finally come to a conclusion that it's not about how beautiful your blog look (altho, sometimes it does count hehe..) but WHAT, WHO and WHEN the blog is written for, that what makes a difference.

Well, as you can see on the blog title, Me , Myself & Irene...represents the evil, angel and neutral part of me. All that sums up to being...Yours Truly.

All i can say at this moment is, I'm really looking forward to be the best version of myself, a human being that cares about surrounding and in a quest of finding those small missing pieces of puzzles in life.

For those missing puzzle to turn into a complete beautiful picture, YOU... my readers and dearest friends, are my mirrors...as i'm yours .

"I may not have the virtue or the noblelity,But i have love...And when i love...I love Strongly, Exclusively & Steadfastly"

Yours truly,
Matahari / Baby Matahari / Irene

P.S : for your listening pleasure ;) .With me, always notice the song lyrics...that's what makes a song, a song... apart from the nice melody. A hidden message for some...


Tamia ~ Me





Tamia ~ Smile