Home is Where the Heart is...

Pontianak ~ January 27th, 2010. Santika Hotel

Feeling blue and alone, is not really a new topic when it comes to being in my chapter in my life.

At the moment, I’m away from my usual favourite spot in my rented house, to be exact.... i’m in a foreign land where newspapers is widely known as Koran and bapa and ibu is no longer a name used for parents, infact it’s a polite way to address people around.

Yeah to put things in a clearer vision, it’s a rainy afternoon where i’m in no mood of eating (surprisingly!) even when my tummy is really grouchy crying for attention to be fed.

I just had an episode earlier on where, all i ever wanted was a good hug! Well that was in the past, the posting i meant ;)


(back to my favourite spot, safely at home!)

Just Before I Leave.....

This is quite interesting. ....
(To women) Please take time to ponder.....
(To men) Just enjoy the story.......

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom..
The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death.

The question was: What do women really want?

Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man. And to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men, and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.

Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be high as the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but first he would have to agree to her price.

The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table, and Arthur's closest friend! Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunch-backed and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc.

He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life.. He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden.

But Lancelot, having learnt of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He said nothing was too big of a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life. And the reservation of the Round Table. Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and the witch answered.

Arthur's question thus: 'What a woman really wants?'
She said, 'A woman wants to be in charge of her own life.'

Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth, and that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it was. The neighboring monarch granted Arthur his freedom. And Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.

The honeymoon hour approached and, Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen was sitting by the bed.

The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened. The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth become her horrible and deformed self only half the time, and be the beautiful maiden the other half.

'Which would you prefer?' She asked him. 'Beautiful during the day .... or at night?'
Lancelot pondered the predicament.
During the day he could have a beautiful woman to show off to his friends,
but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch!
Or,
Would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day?
But by night a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous moments with?

(If you are a man reading this...) What would YOUR choice be?
(If you are a woman reading this...) What would YOUR MAN'S choice be?
And Lancelot's choice is given below....
BUT... please make YOUR choice first before you scroll down below.... OKAY?

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Knowing the answer the witch gave to Arthur for his question,
Sir Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself.
Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time..
Because, he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.

Now... what is the moral to this story?
The moral is...
1) There is 'witch' in every woman, no matter how beautiful she is !
2) If you don't let a woman have her own way, things are going to get ugly !

So, be coutious how you treat a woman and always remember:
IT IS EITHER ' HER WAY ' OR IT IS ' NO WAY ' !!

P.S : Thanks to ONN...

........... (14th Jan 2010)

At this very moment, I'm listening to Rahsaan Patterson....all the way! And feeling every beat of the drum going straight to my heart...(commercial break, What A Feeling ~ Irene Cara...at the back of my mind.....) bahahhahahaaaaa



Now followed by....Tiffany, singing...These Arms of Mine....did i mentioned, i no longer have a live in maid? Maybe this is one of the thing that inspired all these museeq mode thing that's been going on the whole day while doing some spring cleaning by my own...yes...ALL BY MYSELF, thank you Celine Dion!!!



At this very moment, can you believe it .....i'm switching a bit of the tempo to something a little 80's, kinda mellow this time, Air Supply, I can't believe my eyes....which take me back to that movie called Manequin... dang....yeah my LOMANCE (like the chinese pronounced it heheheeee) mode is ON!



FOOK it... I'm switching back to my carefree mode, much more fun this way! Those days, when i really feel blue....i always think of a gorgeous guy and imagine he's singing a love song to me :p .....FUNNY, BUT THAT'S the truth...and nothing but the truth!



Let me see, one of the song was Penny Lover by Lionel Richie...then Julio Iglesias...(i think i blogged about this song...the one with the crush on the commercial model..sighhh LMAO!) Moonlight Lady....

Then when i got my very first car...which i'm still using until today, Brian Mcknight dominate the whole speaker! He sang My Kind of Girl the entire journey from Putatan to Tanjung Aru to my office....and sometimes...i even missed the junction to my office! Right then, i imagined a gorgeous black guy singing it to me...bahahahaaaaaaa

Actually, i don't even have anything to blog tonight, i just feel like talking, but that also couldn't make me sane...well ok...let just get on with all of my Crush song collection, shall we? ;)

One of my biggest crush song will be Chris Brown's number With You ....boy oh boy...by that time, all i can think of was Chris Brown....maybe you guys haven't seen the video clip of that particular song...he was oh-so-gorgeous! Especially the one when he was staring above while singing on the bus...he looks like "malu-malu kucing" (direct translation: shy-shy cat! meaning feeling shy....LOL! OH MY GOD, i'm sooooo in love with this guy!!!! Well the singer of that crush theme song of mine!)

The best of the video was when he sang " I don't want nobody else, without there's no one left then"...the whole verse....go and find that video and just look at his expression....right at that moment, i feel i could fly! And yes...R. Kelly's is at the back of my mind while saying that...heeeeeeee

What is it with all these feel good music? They sometimes just make the world go round and yeah...it's that simple to change my mood from moody to happy or vice versa, in a blink of an eye...just like that...

There were songs that'll just bring me back to certain era of time...for instant my childhood, teen or the present life .....

Earlier on, i was blogging crap again...until i went for dinner, meeting che che nong..and suprisingly my nephew, Albert and his girlfriend, Mimi joined us! And i was so gad they came...because a part of my life tonight was fully understood or answered on his part...where... while growing up i wasn't as chatterbox like what some of you guys see now a days....he thought i was a stuck up snobbish girl..which was totally wrong because i was just plain shy when i was in my teens and the earlier part of my growing up episode....

Phew ..and explaining that to him was such a big relief...because i'm pretty sure most of my family still thinks of me as a somewhat of a snobbish young lady :p that's why i tried my best not to pass judgement on people i come across a couple of time...until when i hear their version of story...especially the growing up part....which i really love to know, it teaches me a lot about how people sometimes behave as they do.

And now i'm OFFICIALLY SLEEPY! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! See you guys when i'm back, in 2 weeks time!!! :D

The One with Spice of Life!

After posting Manja's page....that was on the 4th of January...until today, i learned that there's much more to life than worrying...(will tell you guys IF i have the mood ;) )



I for one had an interesting business and personal life starting from year end of 2008 till this year...turbulence in a way that i'm juggling living with 3 different identity at the same time.



How do i describe this?.... Irene the boss, Irene the little girl, and the normal Irene.... All about the bossy Irene, seriously need an anger management class. At this moment, I'm alright... but not on last saturday evening and the whole day of last sunday. I almost destroyed my own business because of my staff's attitude problem.

As a lady boss, i think it's only normal for me to protect my staff...especially when all of them are young ladies...i do admit that sometimes i tend to over do things, but it's because of one purpose, I want my staff to grow with me...



When you sacrifice a lot of things in life and focus on your business, i think it's only normal that you expect the same from your staff. Yes i can be as cold as ice when it comes to making my desicion, if you really know me...i'm sure you'll understand me.

The little girl Irene, is so sensitive and constantly striving to look for security in whatever sense she could lay her hands on. This includes looking for the impossible dream, that ...to some it only exist in fantasy....so far i achieved 80 percent of that dream...and it has nothing to do with filling up my bank account!

The normal Irene is when you see all the above plus all the crush episode....so there you are, me, myself and Irene ;)

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ok enough with all that...let me tell you what i've been up to ;) at this moment...my studyroom is in a big mess! I'm in the mid of re arranging my life, and when i say that it includes my house! All my myself...i swear to you when i say that i can hear Celine Dion singing at the back of my mind....bahahahahaaaaaa!

While re arranging my life, my house and my wadrobe, i managed to play psycologist to a close friend today. She came in and we had a long chat..... at the same time i noticed that some of my secret dreams finally coming alive! This is so refreshing and so very motivating....where i (soon to be 35 in 4 months time ;) put that on your calendar! HEEEEEEEEEEEEE) seeing things beautifully crafted right in front of my eyes....the universe is listening!!!!! THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUU!

Ok, i'm going to Kinabalu Annex for dinner with che che nong...see you guys later after that... ;)

p.s. My dearest Engineer buddy....will update our "spicy date" picture soonest :D!

TO MY DEAREST MANJA, with love ...Anoi ;)

Just for today 4th of January ( if i'm still around next year...i'll use it again only for this special occasion...you do know i'm not a big of fan of PINK hun....:p ), I'm gonna use this pink eBallpen of mine....miz pink panther known to some...born on the the year of the tiger but soft as a feather...for a very special friend of mine, Miz Manja! HAPPY 35TH BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART!!!

This is my dearest, Manja!

I suddenly feel like i don't know what to write today....my mind is way too fast right now...thanks to Coffee!

HAPPIEST NEW YEAR, EVERYONE !

Hugs, Baby Matahari