Rapunzel ~ Rapunzel....let down your armpit hair... :D

Huh? Yeah.... what could be more shocking and ticklish for a very long overdue hi again where have i been lately than finding my latest mean joke victim huh :p...poor Rapunzel....tsk tsk tsk heeeeeeee :D

Well even while jotting al these down...i'm down with another one of my infamous flu episode (not gonna elaborate on that tho...hehe feeling kinda mysterious lately)

Honestly, i missed my FB friends, my bloggers friends and most of all two of my 'Taiko' and 'TaiChe'....i suddenly felt like my whole world fell apart..when two of my really close confidante go their seperate way...nothing to do with fighting with me or anything like that...just that it's about time for them to spread the happiness they shared with me all these while to others...

To put things into exaggeration level....half of me is now dead....used to call them at wee hours ( dang...ngam kai tu? ) and vice versa....

For sure...i know i'll never find anyone just like them....but hopefully better...yeah they pissed me off sometimes (so do i ) but hell....i love these two awful creature... but i do hope i can see them again....very soon!!!! I Miss You Guys!!!! Come back :(

Yours truly,
Ms Sun - Less Sunshine

~ L..O..V..E ~

"1. It's so easy, to think of Love, to talk about Love, to wish for Love, but..it's not always easy, to recognize Love.. Even when we hold it in our hands...."

"2. She / He can deal with stress and carry heavy burdens. She / He smiles when she / he feels like screaming, she / he sings when she / he feels like crying. She / He cries when she's happy and laughs when she's / he's afraid. Her / His love is unconditional. There's only one thing wrong with her / him, she / he forgets what she's / he's worth! I wanna remind us this... to all the beautiful people out there. I wanna remind all of us that, We are all UNIQUE. Today is "I Love Myself Day"

I come across the above quotation while browsing my (Sister) Gwenny's blog at about 7.20pm today.

For the time being, i'm still in my MIA (for myself) Mode. Which means, i don't feel like going to my kopitiam, i'd rather be outside doing my long overdued 'loitering' (altho it was way past my time to be calling it loitering...duh!) be it shopping, window shopping, or simply being at my favourite corner at home (studyroom...browsing ;) ) .

Sometimes, i do feel it was a waste of time doing unproductive things....but what struck me today, i actually needed some 'Me time'. To straighten some long overdued things which i kept on suppressing....

If you ask me, how do i define L.O.V.E ? My answer is very simple, doing good deeds without expecting something in return. What i learned thru the years, yes i do love....but i always have an expectation that whatever i do, i 'will' get back one way or the other. Hence, when my expectation was labelled as "high expectation" and when others felt it's too complicated in trying to get to know the real me... so they will be able to love me....and then when they failed...i didn't get to feel that they were supposed to just love or care for me....i get 'broken hearted'.

We are NOT supposed to expect anything in return when we do things for those we care about. It is not even a chore to begin with. We do it because they meant the world to us, and knowing when we do it (things that make others happy and make their day....smiling and all that)...that's where the true happiness come from. We feel contend... The trick is....when we do things for them, we do it because we want to...not because we were forced to.

Affirmation : I love myself, therefore...i'm getting rid of all the clutter in my home and in my life :) I am doing this willingly, for me.


Yours Truly,
Noor Ameera

My First Eid Mubarak, Eid - ul - Fitr !

I
I would like to wish all my family and good friends near or far, a very warm and joyous Eid - ul - Fitr, may Allah grant upon us all His blessing for a loving, happy and peaceful Eid Mubarak, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

Yours Truly,
Noor Ameera


Aishah ~ Pulangla



P.Ramlee ~ Suara Takbir



Anuar Zain ~ Bersabarlah Sayang



Anuar Zain ~ Teman Terulung



Anuar Zain ~ Bidadari



Raihan & Man Bai ~ Harapan Ramadan



Sami Yusuf ~ You Came To Me



Zain Ad ~ Ramadan Song

Y..O..U

Kerispatih ~ Untuk Pertama Kali
Aku temukan lagi sebuah cinta
di dalam aura hadirmu
aku rasakan kelembutan hati
di mimpi indah kasihmu

Kita bisa nikmati rasa ini
walau segalanya jelas terlarang
kita bisa saling menyayangi dan mencoba
tak perduli keadaan ini

reff:
dan untuk pertama kali
cintaku terbagi
dan ku ingin milikinya
dan untuk pertama kali
ku sangkali janji
dan bahagia mencintanya

Ohh
dan untuk pertama kali
cintaku terbagi
dan ku ingin milikinya
dan untuk pertama kali
ku sangkali janji
dan bahagia mencintanya

Untuk pertama kali







Rossa ~ Ayat - Ayat Cinta
Desir pasir di padang tandus
segersang pemikiran hati
terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang
kasih bukan sekadar cinta
pengorbanan cinta yang agung
ku pertaruhkan

reff:
maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
cintaku padamu
bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
ketika ku bersujud

bila keyakinanku datang
kasih bukan sekedar cinta
pengorbanan cinta yang agung
ku pertaruhkan

repeat)
reff:
maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
cintaku padamu
bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
ketika ku bersujud

ketika ku bersujud




Ungu ~ Kekasih Gelapku
Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
disaat engkau merindukan diriku
ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu
waktu yang panjang dalam hidupku

yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
yg kucari slama ini dalam hidupku
dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
yg panjang dalam hidupku
hidupku

repeat *

ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
ku mencintai mu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

kekasih gelapku




Ungu ~ Demi Waktu
Aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
Yang kini hadir diantara kita
Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
Yang slama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
Mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkan aku
Maafkan aku




Ungu ~ Tercipta Untukku
Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku

Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku

Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu




(Doaku padaMu)
Ungu ~ Para PencariMu
menjalani hitam putih hidupku
membuatku mengerti arti hadirmu
dalam setiap langkah2 ku berarti
melewati setiap detik waktuku bersama takdirmu
membuatku mengerti hanyalah padamu
kukembali…

ku bersujud kepadamu memohon ampunanmu
adakah jalan untukku tuk kembali padamu

REFF :

akulah para pencarimu ya Allah
akulah yang merindukanmu ya robi
tunjukanku jalan yang lurus
tuk tetapkan langkahku

akulah para pencarimu ya Allah
akulah yang merindukanmu ya robi
hanya di tanganmu ya allah
tempat kupasrahkan hidupku




Kerispatih ~ MengenangMu
Takkan pernah habis air mataku
Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu
Mungkin hanya kau yang tahu
Mengapa sampai saat ini ku masih sendiri

Adakah disana kau rindu padaku
Meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda
Bila masih mungkin waktu berputar
Kan kutunggu dirimu …

Reff:
Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana
Tenanglah dirimu dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi …ohhh

Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana
Tenanglah dirimu dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi... ohhh

Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi



P.S. For Your Listening Pleasure. Know that you're with me, Always. No matter what i do, where i am..You are always there with me.................I LOVE YOU.

Manbai ~ Kau Ilhamku
Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan

Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri hayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...

Repeat)
Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri hayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku(Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu) Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku(Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu) Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku(Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu) Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku(Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu) Kau ilhamku

Yours Truly, MatahariMu

Turning Point

How should i begin this, hmmm..let me see, a turning point at last?

Well ok recently, on August 20th (i should say), marked as my new "birthday" as Princess of Light. Well to those who knows me, knows exactly what i'm talking about. I officially embraced the new me in a way, it changes everything and when i said every thing, i do mean, every single thing in my life.

I learned to let go a lot of thing that used to be a major thing in my life and to be honest, at this point of life, i really do feel like a 5 years old... who's trying to figure out a lot of what's happening around me. A curse? A blessing? Being an optimist i believe in looking at things as half glass full, instead of half emptied ones.

At the same time, i finally conquered one of my "what if" moments (the one normally that'll leave me feeling suffocated) Where i finally drive and just follow my heart and finally see that one special person. Without thinking about what'll happen next. Dissapointed? Nope, but he surpasses my expectation, he's more than what other refered to as more than meet the eye (i hope i use the correct expression here hehe)

P.S. I still have that picture perfect moment in my mind, a guy wearing a black t-shirt which was torn on the right sleeve of it, and dark blue tracksuit pants, wearing slippers (white and a little bluish straps and bluish lines on the circle outline of each slipper.) Hmmm... maybe not really a perfect attire for the first 'eye to eye" meet, but to me it was a perfect moment, where i could hear his voice (real life) without listening from the other end of my phone, on a bright daylight where i can see his every strands of greyish hair of his goatee on his "trying to be brave and cool" face. At this moment i'm giggling as i try to recall that one particular moment where, i don't have a single clue on what to say and end up, we sounded like fighting whenever we say something (well this is as per CheChe D, the witness that day! hehe)....

Well ok Dr Lurve used the term "kanyat-kanyat" as his way of expressing the moment, where i preferred to use the term, "lost in translation". Period. :) Not really a moment where people described as "walking on cloud nine" but it does make my heart skipped a beat and felt weak on both of my knees (hehe). All i can say now is, i became...restless and lord knows what else i felt at that particular moment...(blushing!) Dang! Why do i even bother explaining this today? Because it's been a while since i came across this feeling and i want to put it on my blog as my feel good factor, to remind me that, heck yeah i can still feel something after a series of serious broken hearted episode, so to speak.

When i was in that state, i can say all of the above episode "erased" from my "hardrive" memory, I guess for good this time, it's more than a crush huh ;) You tell me....(hehe) And after i finished this sentence, i'm going to post some songs video, then put my signature and post this entry. I'm going to enjoy every second of this!

SWV ~ Weak




Eric Benet ~ The Last Time




Brian McKnight ~ Another You



Joe ~ All That I Am

Teddy Pendergrass ~ When Somebody Loves You Back

Babyface ~ I Wanna Be Your Baby




Toni Braxton ~ I Want To Be Your Baby




Toni Braxton ~ There's No Me Without You




J.Holiday ~ Forever Ain't Enough




Keyshia Cole ft. Monica ~ Trust



Keyshia Cole ~ You Complete Me



Keyshia Cole ~ This Is Us



P.S. Millions more breath taking love song i wish i can put in here, but know this: of course You are not those others described as "Prince Charming" BUT You are my kind of guy, and to date...Omar Sharif will have to finally make way..because You are my missing piece. You Complete Me.







Yours Truly,
Matahari

F..A..M..I..L..Y

" You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. "

Yesterday, as i was browsing FB (where else could i be :p hehe)...i bumped into a profile, Dr Lurve's to be exact ;) . Dr Lurve is my friend's husband (Psst Anna daling if you're reading this, please don't get angry eh just sharing your family's video picture)

I let Dr Lurve became my "psycologist" during my recent MIA trip (over Yahoo, so he is now, officially one of my Yahoo messenger Psycologist :p hehe)... where i was almost beginning to reach "NIRVANA" with my crush over one guy :) I know...pathetic huh, but hey isn't it a wonderful feeling... when you wake up in the morning and imagine that guy says "hi beautiful" (eventho it's only in your mind :p) and imagining him kissing the tip of your nose and your forehead (the one just above your eyebrow >> my case, the one on my left upper eyebrow hehe....) DANG!

That will definately be my reason to wake up to every morning and definately will cure my "Sleepless in Lido" episode for good! Bahahaaa...but, again...it's all in my mind :)

Anyway, I sort of promise Dr Lurve that i'll blog about the family video and promise to share it on my blog. So here goes :D !

Somewhere early this year, after a chaotic brief life changing moment....i was at my kopitiam and feeling down the whole day. Suddenly bigB's brother, (Mr W) came in for a cuppa. Knowing me, when i have one of those "heavier than anything that heavy chest" moments and wish i could just grab my "BRA" and ripped it off and throw it as far as the eye can see, so to speak (hehe) i will do anything just to get rid of that heavy feeling. When i say heavy, i meant ...even my face hurts, in a bad way :p

So ok, I, without any introduction or whatsoever.. shoot a very direct question at Mr W. Wanna know what was the question? Did you guys noticed the title of the blog, on top? Yeah... " What's your defination of a family? " ! My question to Mr W.... I guessed you guys can imagine how his face reacts to that simple question huh?

Surprisingly, his face remained calm...and he begin asking me if i was ok? Then i told him, i felt all numb and heavy inside. If you asked me now, i probably won't have the guts to ask anyone those question... if it's not because of my infamous "bungee jump spur of the moments curiousity" calling! Yeah the suffocation moment, which only those who really knows me understand :) .

He patiently smile and explains to me that...of course a family will consists of a father, a mother, and maybe one or two kids as the son or daughter of the couple, but now adays, family unit can be a little tricky when divorce happen. There you might have step father or step mother or even step childrens that became step siblings to the kids of the previous couple.

I was listening like a 5 years old girl, trying to figure out where he's going with the simplest explaination which he did earlier. And then he continued, to keep a family together is definately one hell of hardwork. He for one was or rather is a living proof of the "hardwork" in building his family and at the same time climbing his own career ladder.

Wish i could share everything about what he shared that day, but i swore to secrecy about the itsy bitsy details BUT this i can say that, this man is a hero! He and his wife survived the difficult phase in life, and now both of them are very successful at where they are in life.

As i learned that Mrs W now is a proud masters scholar holder and holding big post in the government sector, where Mr W is also holding a big post in a semi government sector and still eyeing for his soon to be masters scholar title.

What did i learn from that chat that day? I learn that good teamwork and good give and take moments, are crucial to make a marriage work, especially when you are a father and a mother of the family, because this is where it all begin. A solid foundation that will help mould a child's development... be it, mentally, physically or spiritually.

By saying that, i honestly have no whatsoever intention in putting any of my parents down, as i understand now that maybe they too were as naive as i was. But i thanked God that i still have the opportunity to maybe do something about it, as i learn thru my past life experience and those experience made me who I am today. Maybe if those things didn't take place, i wouldn't be searching for those missing puzzles in life and i wouldn't be here blogging about it.

So about this Dr Lurve and his latest family video creation, i learned that being away from your family can be channelled into something beautiful as what Dr Lurve did with his spare time (so to speak! hehe) by simply putting a simple photo collection and music together (especially those with beautiful lyrics) and WALLA! A masterpiece, which make his other half (Anna) drive all the way from Kota Kinabalu to Lawas ( I've forgotten the exact kilometres but roughly in hours, 3 to 4 hours?) just so they can be together for breaking their fast together as a family. Now that is, sacrifice in the name of love!

Where two parents separated (in distance...) because of work to find something for their kids, so that they can provide them with maybe a roof over their head, education, and building a future together as a family. As i fondly remember as a child, being away from a father figure does hurt a lot, especially when you are the daddy's girl, and your other sibling (in my case, my brother) being momma's boy. As on my team, my anchor was no where to be seen...those days i have no cellphone to tell him if i was having a bad day at school or simply telling him, how i miss hugging him and miss hearing his voice...(well my "anchor" was a good singer and the best guitar player as i remembered..)

Those are some of the missing puzzles that i keep trying to fill in the blanks all these while, and every journey was indeed a wonderful discovery to me. Altho there are moments where i hit few walls along the way, but when i did recovered from the so called " amnesia" (hehe) i can see a lot of beautiful things surrounding me. Be it new friends, new relatives, new family members and my recent case was, new faith. :)

I had an opportunity on the August 15th to chat with my new family member (Abang MM) which is my cousin's husband, where he is now having the "seperated by distance" moments with his wife due to illness. Where his wife (i just call her kakak ok? ) is in the recovering stage from cancer. Abang is now with the kids in Tawau while, Kakak is in Kota Kinabalu for her radio"something" (i forgotten what's it called..sorry hehe) She survived all the chemotherapy session and now with the radio "something".

I went for my armpit laser hair removal a couple of years ago (and i still have a few session left!!!), and believe me, it was painful! And chemotherapy? I don't know how did she survived all those sessions, but heck, she's one hell of a strong lady! I'm proud of you Kakak, and Abang as a solid anchor for Kakak through out the excruciating sessions, and for being a solid anchor alone, during their trial period. BRAVO! P.S. Abang, I'll always remember the story you told me about you using the song "You To Me Are Everything" as an alarm sound to wake the kids for sahur :) now that is really sweet, instead of screaming you lungs out, you channel it to something positive and even if they can't wake up, least it gives you all the positive vibes eh :D, BRAVO Abang!!

I believe that tough times never last but tough people do. Life is tough but tougher when you are stupid. What i meant was sometimes when we do come across a difficult situation in life, but things would be much easier if we make things simpler by making the most of it and take care of the things that matters the most.

Some will go stray when they feel numb inside ( i did, i'm not ashamed of admitting it. least i learned my lesson and try to be wiser the next time around, altho i have to pay a big price on whatever lesson i learned.) and some just need to be alone to reflect on things and perhaps try to figure out the best way of handling things.


P.S. to Mami & Daddy Google, you know who you are....let us learn from all these wonderful people, so we can make our life a beautiful one! I mean it when i said if i'm old and i can't carry my own grocesseries, you guys are on my speed dial! BAHAHAHA

Sometimes, thinking hard before making an impulsive move on something will save you a lot of heartache in the future. By sharing some of the videos later, i do hope it'll leave some impact on others as it did to me.

Dr Lurve's pride & joy!




My "adik angkat" (adopted sister's fiance birthday bash recently), The Apple of Gwenny's Eyes




Aris Ariwatan ~ 1 2 3 4




Freddie Aguilar ~ Anak




Miley Cyrus ~ Butterfly Fly Away



Yours truly,
BabyMatahari
~ "The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being."

Songs II

While i was browsing FB, i found this song...an old song but nice lyrics i must say :)

I remembered one of my girl friend was so into this song when she was in love with this guy..hehe i think if she's reading my blog (sweetie, u know who u are :p)

Don't get me wrong, i'm posting it here just for listening pleasure and it has nothing to do with any particular guy :)

Daniel Beddingfield ~ If You're Not The One (Accapella)


Daniel Beddingfield ~ If You're Not The One (Acoustic)


Daniel Beddingfield ~ Never Gonna leave Your Side


Mytha ~ Takkan Terganti


Mytha ~ Soulmate


The curse of being a dead romantic at heart, i must say..one can never not noticed a to - die - for song lyrics...hehe...Selamat Berpuasa All :)

Yours truly,
Matahari :)

August 10th, 2010 :)

Today a close friend of mine, DT brought me a "sejadah" or prayer mat in my favourite color, blue :)

I don't know wether it's time for me or He finally shows me the way or anything like that but i'm open for anything right now.

Seing her doing her prayer, how it calms her down altho she went thru a lot of things at the same time, and seing how focus she was as i observed her from my favourite corner while doing her Zohor prayer....it hit me. Maybe He is finally showing me how to be a calm and focus person.

Don't get me wrong, it has nothing to do with any moslem guy or anything about my latest crush, it just happen. BAM! Just like that....

All my life, to even the time where i was supposed to do my "confirmation" so that i could go for my so called "marriage course" (so that i "could" get married in church...well that was those days..hehe) i felt that, by going for "confirmation" so that i could get married properly... was all wrong! Right there and then, i told my mom off that, if i decided to go for the "confirmation" it should be because i wanted to do it, not so that i could get married with somebody.

That time, i was contemplanting .... until what i found my ultimate answer today. if any of you guys noticed, i happen to have another FB account under another name, which i did when i was looking for some missing puzzles in life.

Today everything falls into places...and i understand fully what i'm looking for in life. And i repeat, nothing to do with any moslem guy. It has been me all along....this is the miracle i've been waiting for all along :)

"Please guide me, and mould me to be a better person to my family, friends and loved ones. Guide me to see and decide what is right and what is wrong so that i could share it for the betterment of myself and others. Guide me, so i can feel calm and focus in life, Guide me from doing anything bad that can harm myself, my family, my friends and my loved ones. Guide me so that one day, i can help guide those who lost their way in life, to be strong, kind, honest and most of all, to love one another without being prejudice, judgemental or feeling any hatred or vengence towards each other. "

Yours truly,

Noor Ameera Anani Johan AKA MATAHARI :)

P.S. Selamat Berpuasa to all my moslem family and friends near or far...Hugssss..:)

Soul Food of The Day

"Eleven Hints for Life"

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.


Just for today, i devote my entire day to looking good and feeling good, because I'm worth it!

The selections of songs makes me feel, I am that Girl...so i'm sharing it all here for all the girls out there, Remember this:
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

1.So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt.

2.Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

3.Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

Bobby Valentino ~ Slow Down



Chris Brown ~ With You



Brian Mcknight ft. Justin Timberlake ~ My Kind of Girl



Peter Andre ~ Mysterious Girl


Beautiful Day People!


Yours truly,
Miss MATAHARI :D

A Coincidence?

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heart beat, or will stay awake to watch you sleep, wait for the boy who kisses your forehead .."

hmm...i woke up today and jumped right infront of my laptop, signed in to facebook and WALLA! I found this (as jotted above, minus the cute flowery signs..hehe) on my favourite aunt's facebook profile :)

Coincidence? I don't know, but it was a nice coincidence tho ( P.S. Thank You Aunty, for i always believe...you're my LOVE GURU hehe..but seriously! HUGSSSSS)

Munching my favourite crackers, armed with my favourite yellow mug Morning cuppa ;) with Mr Benet singing his heart out (AGAIN! Yeah, on repeat MODE! ) I woke up about 9-ish and yeah it was the perfect sleep i ever had in a long time, even without laying next to me. Like i said, i feel safe...for now :) Altho, safe means having going to sleep at 5.30 am and woke up around 9-ish...but it was perfect, refreshing and i'm fully rejuvenated!

Oh, now i'm thinking about how do i make it to 2 important meet up on sunday? Where a friend of mine, will be back from Russia and coming over to the hair salon to do her hair and at the same time catching up with me on things and at the same time, my ex schoolmates are arranging a get together on the same day and i think about the same time? Plus my mom's leaving me without a wheel for attending my niece's wedding at the same day? HELP! I need a driver :(

Oh by the way, here's something for my lovely niece, BiBie...for having survived the lost of her beloved husband to cancer and for her new man on her side now...who loved her as she is, with her 4 adorable children and for being a man :) Proud of you sweetie :) " May your love for each other will grow stronger each and everyday, and may you'' be blessed with all the finest things in life. MWAHHHHH I'm soo happy for you Bibie :)

Love,
Aunty MATAHARI :)


All 4 One ~ Beautiful As You

The Song, huh?

As what i have written earlier, I could be easily identified as having a classic sign of a writer's blocked (or perhaps, blockage...i don't know, these days my mind plays trick with me all the time!)

I just came back from my MIA-ing trip, to where all the succluded areas you can imagine. Well, tonight someone asked me if I am a spy? Hehe, good one ;) I have to give you an anti-climax on that one though, i wish i am (exciting life!) but in reality, No!

So by seing me jotting down in here AGAIN, it could mean some of my BIG QUESTION MARKS are or were answered. Well not all of it, but at least after jotting down all these, i think sleeping won't be a problem anymore. I could only think of one thing when i wake up later on, A BIG SMILE :) Happy? You can say that again....VERY HAPPY :)

ALTHO.... (yeah i know, always my kind of anti-climax of happy ending about what i'm going to blog about....) some of the questions still not -so-patience-ly awaits for some unfulfilled or end sentences... but for now, i can blog my heart out again. So, YAYYYYYYY :D

I remembered telling Big G (let's just call him, Big G hehe..i promise one fine day i shall revealed this mysterious Big G to you! So Stay Tuned ;) ) about an incident where i went like a bat - out - of - hell - over You Tube until 6 am, searching and looking for my so called "Future Wedding song" after been asked by my cousin, "Sis what is your wedding song gonna be like?", or something like that....sighhhh

Seriously, i have no what - so - ever idea about it, until someone nailed it to my head, HARD!

All these while, i only think about my theme songs whenever i was down or happy (for what reason, i don't know..it just happen, it's so me huh? hehe) or for being just plain silly...until i stumbled upon another one of Eric Benet's number, today. Basically it sums up all i have bottled up in me for the past...one week plus to be exact! Curious what was the lyrics in the song? Well, i'll share it if you think you won't get tired reading about my crappy blog today hehe...



Eric Benet ~ We Could Have Been

Tell me whose to blame
i thought that we were on our way
i never dream that all my life that love could feel that way
did we move to slow? or was it just too soon?
but there i go,looking back once more.
like a fool, i still imagine what we ...

could have been could it be
we had a chance if we just try again
its the hardest thing to face
its like never knowing how the story ever ends
and i'll never know just what we could have been

so i'll just say its meant to be
and this is faith and destiny
but tell me how do i explain this into part in me
though i write these words i know i'll carry on
but i love you still, probably always will
nothing could ever be so beautiful as we

could have been
if only love had lead you back into my arms again
its the hardest thing to know that
i will never love again like we did then
and you'll never know
just what we could have been

there maybe another chance
in some other space and time
some other circumstance
but will we feel the same
oh how wonderful this world would be
to face it with you here with me
only heaven knows maybe they will see
oh

what we could have been
could it be there was a chance
if we just try again
its the hardest thing
its like never knowing how the story's going to end
and we'll never know just what we hope what we could have been baby
if love could have let you back to my arms again
its the hardest thing to know that
i will never love again like we did then
i know i never ,again
and to never know just what
we could have been


Well, I know now that i'm not gonna be doing my infamous "bungee jumping act" when it comes to the matter of the heart. I'm gonna wait, and see how it goes and see if it fits. Sounds familiar? Hehe...well from the last episode, i think i've grown a little wiser and i don't want to just follow my heart when it comes to making a big desicion this time. I want to use my head and minus all those sentimental things (well just a bit it won't hurt ...or else i will be like a robotic on auto pilot mode hehe).

It does feels nice to have a heart to heart talk out in the open at last, and i liked the idea that baby's doesnt come with a manual, OK another one nailed straight to my head or heart for that matter. Could this be it? I don't know, but talking about those things that will make me blushed badly in real life does helps in calming my nerves down, BIG TIME!

So ok, i feel safe...for now. And i finally yawn! YAYYYYY time for bed now, so i'll leave you guys with Mr Benet himself singing, my theme song for the evening :) a slow one this time :) the song that successfully makes me scared the hell out of the word "what if" ! For good! hehe...sweet dreams sweetheart, wherever you are :)

Eric Benet ~ We Could Have Been

Yours truly,

Matahari

I am hmmmm.....

I can't seem to focus on anything, dang! I really hate this....help?

My mind, for today ~ July, 21st 2010. Beautiful Day To All of You, Hugsss!!!

That is what learning is. You suddenly understand something you have understood all your life, but in a whole new persfective. I finally woke up from my longest "sleep" recently, and begun to see my existence in the universe. I maybe choose a different approach or path in life that one can never imagine, but I do it out of the betterment of me and those who touched my life.

The thing about life is, you can only be your true self when there’s nothing else to lose. A constant reminder as i am a firm believer of where you have given your best shot at things and you are ready to face whatever consequenses that is coming your way. No regrets!

In the case of sink or swim, you only have one shot at things and there is no turning back. I was once that person about 7 years back....where i decided to burned my ship (so to speak..) and make a big jump. Little that i know, I will have to do the same thing after what i have sacrificed that day. Which brings us to, Nothing is more permanent than changes.

Every decision that you make, will bring other consequences. Which sometimes requires a lot of energy and time, in order to make another decision to either rectify what has been done or to move forward after that, and pick up what is left of oneself's.

What is it about decision that makes us act the way we do? Whatever in the past, mold our present way of thinking and shaped the Person we are destined to be in the future. That is exactly why i always mentioned that; Only I, hold the key to my destiny and only if I choose to be, not because others expect me to be.

Inspired, Yes, for today. Anyone can give up, it is the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose. It doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow. There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.

For at the end of the day, i tell myself..."Irene, enough for today, go home and sleep, continue the rest tomorrow , for a cloudy mind won’t help you make any good decision".

My life is like a white canvas. My past, my presents and my future are colours on it that makes my existence comes to life.

MATAHARI to me, is not just as someone refers to it as Nom de Plume but, as a being that like the ray that shines and reach out to those who need warmth in their lives as I need the others, to make my DAY. I am doing my best to be the best version of myself and a good human being as i can. So guide me, be a my mirror as i am yours.

Yours truly,
Matahari.

“No pain, no palm; no thorns, no throne; no gall, no glory; no cross, no crown”.

Joe Thomas ~ Heart Behind My Eyes

Just Something i Pick up from my FB...i did it about a year ago!!

The Question was : Were you named after someone? Let's go down memory lane about a year a go when i was 34 ;) ....1, 2, 3 here goes....

Ahhhh Finally!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
- Yes, Irene Curie. Curious? Goggle it! heheee ( My name means, Goddess of Peace...) but how come i'm rebellious leh ? The middle name (the real one, means Beloved )


2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
- Exactly..morning of 25th Jan 2009


3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
- What's not to like about your own handwriting? ;)


4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT?
- This is a jackpot question, LAMB! Definately LAMB...beef is tasteless ;p


5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
- Nope


6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
- Definately! No doubt ;) u're lucky to be my friends u know heheee...otherwise i'll bully ya! bahahahah


7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
- Yes, especially if i have to deal with ignorant people, to be exact slow, square minded and irritating people! Ishhh


8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
- Of course, unless...if i have major concussion, memory lapse or amnesia which i don't even know, you think?


9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
- Hell Yeah! Bring it ON babe! Wanna join me taking flying lesson ;) ?


10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
- CoCo Crunch and Kellog's Corn Flake with a teaspoon of honey or brown sugar and fat free sweetcorn flavoured milk! YUMMMMMMM


11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
- I wear kitten or wedges most of the time, go figure!


12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
- Ahhh another jackpot question, my only answer will be that divine real Pistachio ice cream...(drooling heheee)


13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
- Definately their eyes and lines around the eye corner bahahahahha...love to see how they react when teased too ;) hehee


14. RED OR PINK?
- Red indeed ;)


15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
- My temper ! It goes up from 0 to 100 within less than a second especially if i'm really hungry....blame it on glucose! bihihiii...


16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
- A man whom i never really get the chance to really get to know him in person, like other kids do with their fathers...


17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
- Yes, if they answer it in details in their own way but no, if they're not serious about completing it.


18. WHAT COLOUR OF PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
- Pants mostly khakis, white & black, but i'm using none now heheeee...what? I'm supposed to be sleeping! Shoes...i'm a shoe fetish! If i like a design i normally buy it in different colours, for now barefoot....i'm at home leh :p


19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
- Rahsaan Patterson "Stop Breaking My Heart" over and over again...LOL p/s: Adam, thanks for the cds ;)


20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
- A crayon that colours "outside the line" quoted from Sex & The City the movie.. ;) ,p/s: watch it if you wanna know what it means :p


21. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
- BLV (by Bulgari), Chance (by Chanel), Funny! (by Moschino), all time favourite...London (by Burberry) A heck..i love perfumes! And definately peppermint....it soothes my nerve hehee


22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
- Manja, my best friend. We planned to have one SIN DAY once in a week, for our favourite junk food! This coming saturday, our Sin Day will be at Mc Donald!!! Here we come!!!!!!


23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
- Who? I nicked it from a friend's website! Baahahhaha


24. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
- Basketball, tennis, boxing and the list grows.....hehee


25. HAIR COLOUR?
- Black. i like to think its black...but recently, my makcik / my maid...pulled a few white ones...NOOOOOO, i'm still 17 at heart!!!!! NOOOOOOOO


26. EYE COLOUR?
- Dark Brown


27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
- Use to, now i'm contacts-free..thanks to lasik!


28. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Definately Turkish, Greek, Italian, Japanese, Chinese, local delicacy.....and the list continue hehee


29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
- Love happy endings movie, I'm an optimist ;)


30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
- The Boleyn sumthing, can't recall but it was quite historic.


31. WHAT COLOUR OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- At the moment, white..i have a lot of white ;)


32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
- Summer, i can't stand cold weather...i get moody!"down to the blues syndrome" hehee


33. HUGS OR KISSES?
- Both, hugs can make you feel secure ONLY if the person you're hugging with gives you a warm and long hugs....kisses, i love all kind of kisses except kissing ass! BAAHHAHAHA


34. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
- Dark Chocolate Brownie....YUMMMMMM


35. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
- if they know that they're my close friends...(u know who u are!)esp..those tagged people, u better...hehe


36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
- those "uninvited" busybody ;) (u know who u are ;) )


37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
- Tons of it, I'm a bookworm...mostly self help book, motivational, novels...etc..come to my house and see for yourself! Hey, i love Paulo Coelho, Jeffery Archer, John Grisham and Jonathan Keller!!! And that Harry Potter billionaire writer ;) dont wanna advertise her...she's damn rich already! :p


38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
- My finger? heheeee...i use laptop so no mouse wotsoever!


39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
- Use to be a tv addict...now hardly since i started my new business venture...Does YouTube counts? Addicted<<< bahahha


40. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)?
- Water dripping from fountain ....slow rain drops, the sea....ahhhh divine...


41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
- Both I love both...can't live without music! I know of one Beatles fan who convert to slow tunes after midnite ;p heheee ( u know who u are ;) )


42. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
- Europe, Holland (Amsterdam, Rotterdam, Vaals, Spikenisse...etc), Belgium (Oostende) and Italy (Rome & Vatican City)


43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
- I have very strong instinct, in fact i know what you did last summer! A-haaaaaa got cha! Does counting tiles counts? ;p


44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
- Tawau, on my mum's maternity bed!


45. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
- Whom ever i can get hold of ;) and make it fast! Pronto heheee ( what? Hitler was my mentor! )


p/s: a lot more people i wanna tag but they hardly open their fb...so people good luck ;) those have written their notes earlier, this is my response heheee.....sorry for the delay ;)

What a Good Sleep meant to me :)

Walla! To finally have a few good hours sleep after a cranky sleeping pattern, i woke up fresh!

I was driving my mum and myself to the market today, at about 4 am...thinking to myself when do i ever gonna have a normal life with my sleeping pattern this way? The minute everybody starts going out from their house to go to work, i for one go to bed. By the time they finished work, life just begin for me for the day.

Well to date, i managed to beat the sleeping pills part...but i wanna be able to sleep like anyone else for once in my life...it cost me my health and my life...when will this stop? Honestly, i don't know.

For once, i would like to go to bed at 9pm or maybe 10pm or maybe 11pm the latest and get a really good at least 5 hours sleep....everyday i woke up feeling sluggish and noticing the sign of aging is all over my face and body...i want to be normal. I really do.

I woke up just now having feeling a little disoriented, as my usual result of having "daymares" ( nightmares, but since it was this afternoon then i took the liberty to change it bahahaaa)....i just want to be normal like anybody else.

Well, i have to go to fetch my mo from the kopitiam in a while, i'll see u guys tonite...if i'm in my "vampire mode" again.... mwahhhh


Yours Truly,
Matahari

My Car?

I'm running out of idea here, Not about what to write but i really miss my CAR!!

Eversince mummy hijacked my car, i'm left with on my two feet, and it's saturday! My supposedly designated driver has gone MIA again, probabbly snoring her heart out heee, i guessed that master feng shui was right about me...i'm a chariot, i decide where i go, not wait for others to show me the way nor to fetch me, tsk tsk tsk.....how true ;)

I guess a van will be on my chrismas list this year, for mummy NOT me, as i really love my car. I have been driving it for pheww...10 years now and still it's in excellent condition, fully paid :D

I remembered the time when i first saw it, man... it was love at first sight bahahaaaa....i couldn't sleep for few days, thinking about it...saying to myself, I MUST HAVE IT! NO MATTER WHAT!

Then after i couldn't bear it any longer, i took my ex fiance to the showroom and pointed it to him, THIS IS WHAT I WANT! No words can describe how bad i wanted that car that time. It was like we're destined to be together hehe...my "soulmate" bahahaaaa...seriously!

Have you guys ever felt this...where you couldn't sleep because of having ur mind preoccupied with missing someone, that's what happened ;) Call me crazy, that's how i felt about something or someone i really liked. Yeah, my infamous crush....remember the story i told you guys about my first crush with "Omar Sharif"? Something like that...

Weird eh? But that's just who i am, a ittle eccentric on the side ;) Ohh...i totally forgotten to thanked Big B and her mom for bringing me my favourite soft shell crab! Yayyyyyy...which reminds me, i have to go and reheat it in the oven...because i'm hungry now :) i'll see you guys tomorrow perhaps ;) and P.S. Miz Guzdur if you're reading this ( i know you do.... sneaky hehe) Bon Voyage for tomorrow ;) Sweet dreams :D


Yours truly,
Matahari

July 17th The One with The Rain...again!

At this very exact moment, my earphone screaming "You'll have to cry me out" (well ok, that's the chorus lyrics of my current REPEAT MODE song...don't ask me how long it's been on repeat..i lost track myself hehe)

I guessed July's never really a happy month for me, but for some reason i don't feel as sad and scared as i used to be. Could it be...a turning point? Perhaps new life circle? I don't know, but what i do know now... i smoke less, i can sleep more than 3 hours, i no longer need antibiotics since early July until today, i'm in contact with some of my old coursemates, my old schoolmates, i have less grey hair (bad antibiotics!!!), i've watch about 30 dvds, i read my past issues of my abandoned magazines, some new books (motivationals mostly and some novels yayyyyyy), i get my other best friend (another ex schoolmates) to finally agree with me to make a small step of beautifying herself (her infamous eyebrows!!!), i finally tell the truth about another best friend of mine about her loved ones (which was a little chaotic at that time, but all is good now...trust me!)

P.S. Sorry love, to put u guys in such a difficult moment but I'm not sorry for telling u the truth and being a real friend.)

Ok, i think i stopped breathing there for a while....continue ~ hehe...Did i mentioned that 10 days from now, it's gonna be 14th years my father's passing annyversary? It's hard to finally say goodbye to my "waiting by the staircase with my favourite book" denial moment. My infamous denial syndrome which have been with me most of my childhood years thru my teen years and finally now....A big relief? Yes and No, to be honest.

A new friend whom i met in FB yesterday told me about his "rain moment" and hey, i'm not the only one at last! When he mentioned about how the rain reminds him about Lady D's passing, his childhood and his (well i assume...old flame) Miss Ex collegemate ...i wondered, are there anymore out there suffering from this "rain syndrome"? Could it be just because of the weather or because it's hard for us to let go of something so painful which took place during this weather?

It's a blessing really that this year we experience dry early of the year followed by very wet and humid mid year. Or else i won't be able to be face to face with my most feared weather...as they say, practice makes purrrfect!

Eversince the rainy season started, i've been at home most of the time, leaving my kopitiam in the mercy of my mom ( please God, don't let my staff chicken out when they have to face the wrath of her bahahaha) where i've been sick because lack of rest (don't get me wrong, the kopitiam's not that busy...it's my mind that can't shut down sometimes...) planning and contemplating about pros and cons regarding something which i need to do.

There were times, where i totally shut myself out from the rest of the world (this includes, the curtains, doors, handphones, newspapers etc...) for me to keep my mind blank even for an hour. If i'm not mistaken, this is pure schizophrenia! Bahahaaa.... After doing some research of which catagory does i fall under, out of 5 (Paranoid, Disorganized, Catatonic/Mood disorders, Undifferenciated and Residual) I think mine will be under my own catagory.....so to speak ;)

i'm exaggerating again innit ;) , told ya! Anyway.... Miss BigB dropped by earlier, had a chat about what happen recently, where i almost destroyed her love life for telling her about the truth about what i think of her beau. Never ever asked me about my opinion if you guys can't handle the truth, my word of advise! When people warned you guys about how lethal and dangerous my words and my thoughts can be, you better believe it.

I believe in NOT sparing any single details if it means that the person can put every puzzles into places, to help the person spare him/herself from agony. So be careful...be very careful...hehe.

I suddenly feel very tired and my mind is blank and light (in a good way..tho) I guessed, that's a good sign for me to take an hour or so rest then maybe who knows, i might write again later.

Yeah i know some of u miss hearing my nonsenses, but this princess need her "Sleeping beauty moment" ...i'll leave u guys with my REPEAT MODE SONG ( I have been looking for this song eversince i heard it 29th may when i was in KL, finally i found it when i was half as sleep on my sofa at home over the TV.....I tot i was dreaming!!!!!).....Pixie Lott ;) ~ "Cry Me Out"...have a beautiful rainy saturday people....P.S. Princess singing " You'll have to cry me out ~" suddenly i need a good hug...sighhhhh ......Bon jour, Mon cheri!


Sincèrement, toujours
Le soleil ;)


Pixie Lott ~ Cry Me Out