Thursday, April 30, 2009


Well, i guessed this explains ;)
(i was gonna post a song on my "Favourite Tunes Group" when i found out they banned me from uploading any song....well honestly i was kinda pissed earlier, but then when i think's not really my lost because from today onwards, I can post all the song in here! yeah stop me if you can, I gained more and it's entirely your lost!!! (:p FB) bahahhaahhaha...even if i'm totally banned from the internet scene...i'll keep on singing!!!! Museeq is my soul!!!!

p/s: Why i wanted to post this badly?
Someone (you know who you are ;) ) reminded me today, that yeah maybe i'm in denial, and yeah maybe that's what my subconcious mind keep telling me....that HE'S THE ONE..but for once...i just wanna admire him from far.....(hehe, yeah this is what you guys called, "kes mabuk asmara" hahaaa) but hell yeah, I LOVE HIM..... i do. PERIOD!

I'm in my CAVEMAN MODE today....don't ask ;).... just enjoy the song and as usual listen to the lyrics, every single word of it and feel the song...enuf said!
I give you, UNGU....


Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
Mengagumi tanpa dicintai
Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
Dengan hidupmu, dalam hidupmu

Telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

Ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya

Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

Ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya

Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja..wohhh ha ahhh

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Rainbow ....from LIDO with Love

Yesterday, after the usual routine closing the Kopitiam and about to go back home, "Makcik" noticed this beautiful rainbow at the back of the Kopitiam, while on our way to the car park.

Just look at that!

I quickly took out my old Canon IXUS 40! And here are some of the images! At the same time, I remembered Lillian Too once mentioned about taking pictures while making it looks like you're receiving your rainbow on ur's very auspicious!

My "rainbow blessing" from above ;)

Then after, we went back home and fetch NONONG ( my god daughter) for dinner at where else ;) KFC heheeee at LIDO. While everybody was busy eating... i looked on my right hand side (from the glass wall, inside-out) and immidiately noticed the signboard " PERSATUAN CATUR LIDO" with 5-6 tables with chinese chess marking on top. Which made me think, what is it about associating yourself to an association or group? Do they really feel bored sitting or relaxing at home?

"Makcik & Nonong" The Signboard

The Chinese Chess Top

After cracking my head trying to think or come up with an answer to my own the same time i managed to whacked my KFC ( RIBS ONLY! haha), i decided to go out and finally take picture about this mystery "Chinese Chess" thingy.

I'm kinda new to this, and curious at the same time..i managed to take several pictures of the table and the "buah" to use for a chess match. The picture with the old man and his chess partner comes with a warning (well a friendly one that is, he told me " Amoi (girl), don't published it in the newspaper" hehe..."I didnt Uncle just on my blog" , i replied...i'm not sure though if he understand the word BLOG ?

The table & the "buah" This is how you start this game

The Uncle and his chess friend

Which made me think again, why and how did they start to know this game and what was the purpose to be there other than play chess?

As soon as i started walking towards the Supermarket Lido....I found my answers! Below picture, a group of friends with their fishing rod (THANK YOU GUYS!!!! Hi Jas, sorry for the delayed...I was having a blogger's block :p). It hit me that, it's not all about being a somebody in an association or pure hobby, the feeling of security being one of the person who's actually in that particular group. Imagine planning a fishing trip like this, and comparing who caught the most fish or maybe even who got the best, latest fishing rod? Does this makes sense? It's the feeling of sharing something with someone that made a difference. The same reason why i'm blogging these out on my blog!

I wanna share a friction of my life's episode about things i like, places i go and people i meet. What i learn out of it. As i'm still learning about all the things i see or even some unanswered questions i have in mind.

Special thanks to Jas & Fishing Friends (HUGSSS) for allowing me to take their picture!!

Why do i even bother to share my blog for public to see? I just wanna be more open about myself and maybe somewhere somehow, some of the things i blogged out can make a difference in someone's life......I'm done with bottling things to myself.


This is a face from my past whom i can never forget, Robin Patrick. We used to be in the same school (SBPL) way back in 1991' - 92'. He shared his song with me, knowing that he might get into trouble with the rest of the people (well some of them) and together...we won the talentine competition! (errr...well it was second or maybe 1st place - singing "WONDERFUL TONIGHT" ) where he played the guitar and we sang duet ;) . Because of that (SHARING) i have my memory of a lifetime that somehow, i, Irene Johan... deserved to love and be loved. And Robin dear, if you're reading this...I'm really thankful for what you did that time, for simply being NON JUDGEMENTAL about people surrounds you and for standing up on what you believe in. He was really a good man and still is....

P.S : I found this while having one of my "too many question, but no answer" moment. Have fund reading!

Yours Truly,


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Obsession 2 : KK Diamond Jewellery Exhibiton, STAR

I got a message from KKDC today, inviting me to go to their Jewellery Exhibition at Tanjung Room I, Shangri-La's Tanjung Aru Resort. I was with Eve & Ted earlier, drinking Ice Kopi Susu "KAW", munching some banana fritters....ahhhh

I decided, why not? ;) So ..soonest "Makcik" locked all the shutter, we rush to STAR! Weeeeeeeee!!!! While driving, i can feel my heart beat....(this is pure adrenaline rush i must say!!!) And...WALLA!!! These are the evidence ;)

1.Citrine Pendant

In my mind (that time..hehee), i was imagining pairing this piece with my Citrine Ring, the price? (SIGHHHH) Don't ask! LOL

2.Diamond Sunflower Clipped Earring

I can't resist trying it on and it fits ...perfectly! (SIGHHHHH)

3. Diamond Flower Clipped Earring with matching ring - I tried both on too! Jenie loves this design ;) Simple eh? Which reminds me of Samantha Jones on "Sex and The City" ...heheee

i. ii.

4. Diamond Rings -

i.Dunno what u call it (heheee, white gold), but perfect to paired with your solitaire ring.

ii. X white gold ala Paloma Picasso piece...kinda rough, which i prefer Paloma's touch...ORIGINAL! HAHA!

iii. iv.
iii. Princess Cut (i think, heheee), this piece is about 58K as in RM 58,000.00 ! And that's after discount! (SIGHHHHHH)

iv. Pear Shaped with small diamonds...the picture's not that clear here..but in real life it's nice ;) so as the price!

5. Semi Precious Stones white gold ring (with small details, butterflies, clover & heart) I forgotten what the stone called, but so far...this is my favourite! Very Unique, sweet and fairy kinda ring...OWWWHHHHHH!!!

6. Classic Oval Sapphire and Diamond White Gold Ring, this reminds me of Aunty Maria.....

7. Classic Oval Aquamarine and Diamond White Gold Ring....DARN! Heheee....Lord knows....(SIGHHHHH)

Well... after all the "oohhhhh and sighs" (while trying all the above) I came home , empty handed! "Makcik" told me, "Sis, you're totally charmed by the ring!" (especially ring no.5)..hmmmm Mambo number 5 ! ;) I was like a little girl lost in a toy's store! :p
Well that trip reminded me that, i have to save more and spend less! hmm...ahh well, it's ok to treat yourself once in a while.... ( that's Matahari talking! BAHAHAH)
And if you're wondering...........YES .....i'm still on NAT KING COLE's MODE! Let me see, i think i have another number by Mr Cole ;) ...don't know whether you guys heard of it or not but it's definately ON REPEAT MODE right where i am ! ;)
P.S : Isn't it nice if i can ask him (The Object of My Affection) these......i give you again, Mr Nat King Cole (Gentleman's version)....and Doris Day (Lady's version)
Yours Truly,
Baby M

Nat King Cole ~ If I Give My Heart To You

Doris Day ~ If I Give My Heart To You

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Nat King Cole : Making Believe You're Here

After looking high and low for this title lyrics, I decided ...i'll just write it myself! Indeed this is a rare piece by Nat King Cole and I am a big fan!
And yeah i am on "Nat King Cole Mode" right this moment ;) ( shhhhh hehe :p )
Come and sing with me...i give you....
Mr Nat King Cole....

You maybe miles and miles away
But still you’re with me everyday
The miles just seem to disappear
Making believe you’re here

Each night when I sit down to dine
You’re in the chair across from mine
Your smile erases every tear
Making believe you’re here

The photograph, you tore in half
Is back in the frame again
But once a heart is torn apart
It’s never the same again

This lonely dream I’m clinging to
Is not at all like holding you
And yet is all that I can do
Until you do appear

I’ve got to make believe
You’re here


The photograph, you tore in half
Is back in the frame again
But once a heart is torn apart
It’s never the same again

This lonely dream I’m clinging to
Is not at all like holding you
And yet is all that I can do
Until you do appear

I’ve got to make believe
You’re here

Yours Truly,

Irene Johan

Monday, April 13, 2009


YAYYYYY!!! Polished!!!

My "sexy" fingers (HAHA!!!)

Diamond Nail Station - the nail parlour, Warisan Square.

Emily -Salon Co Owner cum Manicurist

I know I’m supposed to be doing the other half of my earlier post yesterday morning but darn! I think I’m having a little “blogger’s block” situation here, HELP! My mood for the evening totally changed, thanks to the rainy late afternoon ;) (those who knows me well, knows what I’m talking about ;) )

Anyway, at this moment (oh well, guessed I just have to blog whatever come to mind)….my headphone’s repeating the same song by one of my favourite singer of the ole days (shhhh…..hehe :p )

Well (before)yesterday I was at a nail parlour, Diamond Nail Station (first floor, Warisan Square) i needed some "beautification"....While Emily (my favourite manicurist!!!!)'s to my mind was somewhere else.
Have you ever felt like you know someone just by the first gaze? A feeling that is totally ridiculous but it’s true …where you know exactly what they gonna say next even without them finishing the sentence? It’s scary to me really, (for your info) I don’t think I have psychic power nor am I a clairvoyant.
The funny part of it was, i actually felt how nervous that person is ( you know who you are :p) At this very moment, I wish I could come forward with my very last drop of courage to confess about things (don’t worry, its nothing to do with bad thing of any sort…hehe) I’m just plain in “L.O.V.E”. Period!
Well, the blog post this time are a little bit here and there, kinda like a reflection of how exactly the state i'm in, exactly at this moment. I never was a fan of Westlife and when i was looking for some songs to post in here, i found these..and this is exactly what i wanted to say ...all these while (phew) Strange how things turn out to be ;)

WestLife ~ I Never Knew I Was Losing You

Westlife ~ If I Let You Go

WestLife ~ Until The End of Time

Deep down... my heart, I know that he's the ONE. Enough said.....
Yours Truly,
Baby M

April 13th, 2009 (Today)

Aizat ~ Lagu Kita

I just woke up, and 1001 things need to be done to day. I'm trying to find my tempo here guys ;) heheeee :p

(on the other hand....)
I really need to blog this out, lately i can feel that a wonderful magical element surrounds me. I don't know why, who, where or when but i just feel it. Just imagine, it's like the air or wind surrounds you, you don't actually see it but you feel it. For the time being, I'm guessing that all the bad karma's vibe finally released from my system!

I feel anything is possible at this moment, a feeling that i myself cannot explain, it feels so right....(To be Continued)

Thursday, April 9, 2009


“What’s with the old and new? It doesn’t matter whether the songs, people, books or even movies… the new ones can always improved the beat in a song, but the old song will always remained classic and classy in it’s own way...”

Hi Five ~ Can’t Wait Another Minute

The old and new eh? Why I bring this up today? I really miss the ole days…Today, when I opened my facebook, I saw a comment on one of the song I posted in my group “Irene’s Favourite Tunes”. I was really touched by one of my dearest old friend's comment…. Lydia to me is like a big sister that I never have.

Those days way back in 1988 when I was in the secondary school (form 1), we used to fool people by telling them that we are actually real sisters. Of Course at first, none of them believed us at first, but when we explained that we are steps sisters..then yeah! HAHA!

I can’t believe how time flies so fast. It was 19 years ago (1990), I left SM St John Tuaran after form 3! That was the saddest time for me in school to have to leave behind all my closest friends to go to SBPL (formerly known as, Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Labuan. Now known to all as, Sekolah Menengah Sains Labuan) and knows nothing about what’s ahead of me.

When I left, my closest friends told me that they were so proud of me and to named a few, Manja, Lydia, Wandi, Cath…and the list continues. To this day, a part of me kept thinking..”What If” I didn’t go that time? Would things be different?

Deele ~ Two Occasions

I missed all of them when I was in SBPL….boy, I really did! The thing that kept me sane while I was in SBPL was Manja’s letter, which she kept writing to me without failed and told me everything about what happen back home (Tuaran). I used to wait nearby the stair case next to the school admin office for her letters, which as soon as I get my letter, I will quickly go to my favourite spot and read it out loud as if Manja is reading it to me in person. I prayed hard that her letters never stop coming because for me to write back, I was so ashamed that I have nothing good to tell about my life back in SBPL. So ashamed that my ego took control of my feeling. As some of those people who knows me, knows what I’m talking about. I never meant to be an egocentric, it’s just who I am and how I was raised.

After 7 ~ Baby I’m for real

That time, being a cry baby infront of people was totally out of the question! I have too many defences which destroyed the softer and the good side of me, turning me into someone I don’t even know exist! A monster to be precise!

That feeling now totally banished from my dictionary and thanks, I had to learned it the hard way. I never regret to have shown to some people back in SBPL that “monster” side of me. They asked for it! Just imagine being bullied mentally and being boycotted by the whole school for standing up for what I believe. Just because I refused to join the school bonkers boys to boycott another fat, smelly fellow schoolmate? I have my own brain, thank you very much! Unless you’re a really insecure human being, having an inferiority complex of your own and can’t stand to be left alone, then it’s your lost…definitely not mine!

By that, you can tell how high was my ego ;) In that context, I’m proud to be the last man standing and NO, NO REGRET what so ever! I believe that all human being should be treated equally, even how smelly, fat, different ethnic race or level they belonged to.

We are all human being, and human beings have feeling! I can forgive easily, but I’ll never forget. It’s a friction of my life chapter, and those what made me who I am today. I never hold grudges, my purpose here today is purely to educate those ignorant people to see things from the victim’s shoes. So before they decide to do things like that to other people, put themselves in that shoe first! It was not a good feeling. The very basic of human fundamental needs is to love and to be loved, to feel safe and needed by other human being.

Picture yourself as a person who came from a broken home and a bad childhood past and then things like that happens to you….what will you do? How would you handle with it? I know I survived, but can you?

The lesson I learned from all the above was, “If you’re going thru hell, keep going” and never ever surrender, for this I can promise you, in every suffering or dark tunnel….at the end, there’s always a light that shines so bright. That once you see it, it can even make you forget that you ever been in a dark tunnel or dark period in your life.

What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday, and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow. Our life is the creation of our mind. We are what we think, all that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the world. Speak or act with a pure mind and happiness will follow you as your shadow….Unshakeable!
To dream of the person you would like to be, is to waste the person you are…all of us have a beautiful heart. Never ever forget that! The best thing is to be the best version of ourselves. That way, no matter where you go, you’ll stands out from the crowd.

“The crowd, the world, and sometimes even the grave, step aside for the man who knows where he’s going, but pushes the aimless drifter or follower aside”

“Keep away from small minded people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small minded people always do that, but the really great ones make you feel that you too, can become great! “

P.S : To my dearest sisters, Lydia & Manja… Thank You for loving me as me….this song goes out to you….

Tyler Collins ~ Thanks To You

Yours Truly,

*Some of the songs selected today are reflections of my feelings, it could be a new song or a blast from the past…Thank you for dropping by ;)

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Close to Heaven

Color Me Badd ~ Close To Heaven

Mentally alert today, thanks to the “Old Flame” mode ;) hmmm…..sometimes, reminiscing is good…got a certain feel good factor there I must say…(weeehooooooo) especially if he’s dangerously good looking…hehe (blushing)
This explains the song above eh? hehe

Brotherhood Creed ~ Helluva

Imagine me dancing to this tune ;) hehe…. Yeah that’s exactly what I felt earlier!

Ok..before I go too far with my crush story ;) I’ve been this way long time ago (the crush thingy, but now >>>>)… if I see something I like, I’ll go all the way (TOOOT, well just recently) i just don’t want to have that “What If “ feeling. I can imagine when I’m 80..sitting by myself and thinking about all the “should have been naughty” moment but let it slipped away…no I won’t (back to reality hehe..thank God! :p )

I’m all smiling now, and it feels damn good..oh yeah bebe! I’m all smiling and dancing!!! Lets dance to this, Good life and Good Company!!! Salute!!!

Anyway, I’ve been naughty today. I did one of my favourite past time (those days), today!! I was online and guess what? I still pass for a 23 year old girl, ON CAM (hell yeah, definitely in denial again!!!! Well according to Mr Good looking!) HAHAA.

I almost fainted infront of my cam, while chatting to one very good looking guy from Egypt ( grrrr…hmm…hmm..hmm..hmm..hmm) when he sent me his live cam, Oh My God…he’s HOT!!! Met him while surfing on Tagged chatroom ( courtesy of MIZ BIGBOOBS! ;) , thanks hun) ;)

...before you guys go to bed tonight, here... i'll share with you one of my "Crush Song" those days, i leave you with, PM Dawn, enjoy ;)

PM Dawn ~ I'd Die Without You

Yours Truly,
Matahari =) Hehee

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Repeat Repeat Repeat!!!

Today an "old flame" came for a visit to my shop...phew luckily i was still sleeping at home! Honestly, everytime i see him....he makes my heart skipped a beat! Haha...because after all these years, he's still looked really good! Guess he aged like wine ;) hmm....

Anyway, ehemm... i was browsing earlier on my favourite YouTube and found this..."Lately" by Jodeci, originally by Stevie Wonder. So divine... i can't get enough of it..REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT!!!!

And as those who knows me really well, museeq (music) is like oxygen to me, even without any mp3 player or car audio (yeah recently "hangkang"...which i need to find time to go and repair it!!! Darn!) i'll singing up to my lung! Bahahah!

So i'll leave you guys tonight with Jodeci singing "Lately", let me go to that "down memory lane" corner for a while and reminisce about my "old flame" and wish he's thinking about me too (OMG! I can't believe this, after all these while.....sighhhh) hehe..

Jodeci ~ Lately

Listen to that song....feel it...altho kinda mellow, but hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm...simply divine ;) Now this is what i called, singing from the heart! "Old flame" this one's for you....from the heart ;)

Yours Truly,


Sountrack : La Mer (Movie: French Kiss)

I was sooo excited as i searched on YouTube, i found this soundtrack from a movie titled FRENCH KISS starring Kevin Klein and Meg Ryan which was one of my favourite movie in the 90's. I don't know what the title of the song means but i love it, Period!

One of those cute romantic comedy movie with a feel good after movie effect ;)

P.S : I didnt know Kevin Klein can sing! WOW!

Kevin Klein ~ La Mer

Yours Truly,
Baby Matahari


Amethyst Sun Silver Earring

Garnet Oval Dangling Silver Earring

Lemon Cream Cheese Cake, Chocolate Brownie ( My favourite!! )
and BlueBerry Cream Cheese Cake

Yam Cake

Assorted Mini Fruit Tart ( My Favourite )
As you can see on the top section of my post for today, my life revolves around food and accessories. I was at Wisma Merdeka when it occured to me that i totally forgotten to get Pai's birthday cake!!
I know i'm a bad friend hehe...another thing about me, Ms Forgetful :p anyway, i went to Wisma Merdeka to develop my pictures from the photo shop on the ground floor of Wisma Merdeka, which again i totally forgotten about the name.
While waiting for the photos to be done, i browse around the ground floor and YAYYYY i saw my earrings!!! Well that time it was still in the glass display....i patiently tried each one of it.... until tadaaaaaaa.... i fell head over heal with the above pairs! Boy did i bargained hard for it!
After that i quickly went over to Hyatt Kinabalu and bought the (Scroll up) cakes...Yayyy killing 2 bird with one stone ;) And did u guys noticed? This is my 3rd posting so far? Hmmmm humm... I intend to write my blog everyday, this time.
WHY? Lets just say, i need to polish up on my 'rusty' english, which i noticed getting worse everyday. I need to focus on doing something to beat "the old familiar feeling" aka dilemma ( please do correct my spelling ..hehe) and after some serious brainstorming...resulting to BLOGGING it out.
Therapeutic so far, and it's simple but at the same time i can polish things up ;) Sounds so simple eh? Trust me it's super therapeutic.... plus the museeq on my headphone right at this moment is so damn fine...hehe... will blog about it tomorrow tho, since if i put it here now, i would have to modify all my labels hehe...
Ok ...feeling a bit sleepy now, time for bed ;) See you guys tomorrow!!
Yours Truly,

Saturday, April 4, 2009

These Arms of Mine

Always been a fan of soulful blues music ever since i can remember, i was about to turn off my laptop when i suddenly remembered this song title " These Arms of Mine" originally by Otis Redding, then while in my primary school days remaked by Tiffany, and now ;) Duffy!!!!

Well today also happens to be a day of celebration for two people, My late dad which is his 65th birthday( i love you, dad eventho you're gone, you're always there in my heart) and a new dear friend, Pai (hugs sweetie, may all your wishes come true!!! P.S : no hidden agenda ah on that song hehe :p ).

Here's a song, a mellow one this time... symboliclly Duffy (future to come), Tiffany (present ...that time ;) ), Otis Redding ( past...) Enjoy!!!



Otis Redding

Otis Redding (version) Lyrics

These arms of mine, they are lonely, Lonely and feeling blue.
These arms of mine, they are yearning, Yearning from wanting you.

And if you ....would let them hold you,
Oh how grateful I will be.

These arms of mine, they are burning, Burning from wanting you.
These arms of mine, they are wanting, Wanting to hold you.

And if you... would let them hold you,
Oh how grateful I will be.

Come on, come on please let them. Just be my little woman / man
Just be my lover.I need me somebody, somebody to treat me right.
I need your arms, loving arms to hold me tight.
I need your, I need your tender lips, to hold me,
To hold me together when I'm around you.

First & Foremost

After several attempt of doing my very own blog, I finally come to a conclusion that it's not about how beautiful your blog look (altho, sometimes it does count hehe..) but WHAT, WHO and WHEN the blog is written for, that what makes a difference.

Well, as you can see on the blog title, Me , Myself & Irene...represents the evil, angel and neutral part of me. All that sums up to being...Yours Truly.

All i can say at this moment is, I'm really looking forward to be the best version of myself, a human being that cares about surrounding and in a quest of finding those small missing pieces of puzzles in life.

For those missing puzzle to turn into a complete beautiful picture, YOU... my readers and dearest friends, are my i'm yours .

"I may not have the virtue or the noblelity,But i have love...And when i love...I love Strongly, Exclusively & Steadfastly"

Yours truly,
Matahari / Baby Matahari / Irene

P.S : for your listening pleasure ;) .With me, always notice the song lyrics...that's what makes a song, a song... apart from the nice melody. A hidden message for some...

Tamia ~ Me

Tamia ~ Smile